date: Monday, July 31, 2006 @ 10:41 pm
title: =)
As I continue my quest to annotate my Chaucer, it came to my realisation of how wicked men in the world can be. True love comes with a price. Convenient desire comes with a payback time.
I'm glad that when there's one Chaucer volume,
there's tonnes of Bible of various language and translation.
If you think Chaucer is sexually overtoned,
wait until someone makes a movie out of a Bible.
Irony isn't it?
Chaucer vs Bible.
date: Sunday, July 30, 2006 @ 9:49 pm
title: Time
"How?""What?""I guess no."I believe in this: freely you give, freely you receive.
In life, demand creates its own supply. Once the demand runs out, there's no need for any supply. Den its time to reallocate resources to other demands that need it more. In this way, there will be equilibrium. emotional equilibrium i guess.
Busy. The typical excuse that I get from people from young until now. Its like some kind of conveniences. You will reap what you sow. Amidst of our tight schedule, somebody who needs us has died. I experienced that once. So I never use 'busy' as an excuse to dodge what I can do to my limit with the limited time for people around me.
'You make time for people, not find time. 'I believe if you can't make time for things now when life is already quite complicated and tight, will it make any difference in the coming years when things will be much more? Not so.That's why I have a list of people and things that I mentally attached to and keep to daily, making sure that when I have the chance or opportunity to spend no matter how little time with the person or activity. I will make it happen. Yet. It takes two hands to clap.
'You wan. Doesn't mean the other wan.'Sometime a few people. Sometime just a person. Sometime everyone. Sometimes the weather. Everyone is busy with something but if they are not able to see eye to eye den there is no point tusseling. 'Freely you give, freely you receive.' That's my explanation. It works both ways. If you free receive from what people give freely den when you give, people will freely receive it.
"Hi!""Thanks for making time for me.""You are welcome.""You are the first.""Next time your turn k.""Yup!""So what did the doc say...."
date: Wednesday, July 26, 2006 @ 10:23 pm
title: CIP
"What's your name?"
"Chicken!"
"Huh?"
"Chicken lar!"Kids. Children. Pre-adolescent.
Sometimes as I watch my next generation stroll past me with heaviness shrouding their necks, choking them with the expectation of daily Singapore life. Just being a student of a primary school, they have to face one of the toughest competition and to survive it in a rather spiritually inconducive environment for them to explore their abilities and skills. Their aims are their parents' aims and their parents' aims are social expectations.
Yet. These little ones that I dwelled among. Taught me what life is all about. I felt like a student among these carefree yet troubled kids. Their eyes and art pieces betrayed their inner being. Althought I can say proudly that I have survived the ordeals of my years, yet once again these ordeals seem nothing as I stood among them. As I looked at them, I saw myself. My younger days. My heart quenched.
Scars. They just resurfaced. They just made me understand them more. They are always there.
"Eh.. Teacher!"
"NO! what's my name?"
"Chicken!"
"Wa.."
I love them. But I can't. I have to be rootless, otherwise my emotions and feelings will race before me and embrace them even before my actions could catch up with. Then.. the scars will deepen.
"Teeeeacherrr!"
In my weakness, I see my strength.
In them, I see my future.
At there, I sense my destiny.
At home, alone.
"What?"
"Come lar. Teeeeacher!"
date: Thursday, July 20, 2006 @ 11:06 pm
title: Himbos.
Awesome. But you decide. Himbos?
Character traits:They are cute. Everyone loves a pretty face. The girls love them because they’re malleable. And the guys spend lots of time with the girls because they have nothing better to do. As women become more successful, they want a guy who isn’t going to take over their lives. They want someone who looks great in a photo and who is game to whatever she wants to do. The public may not be in love with himbos, but they are in love with the girls who have them. Back in the day, men would have bimbos on their arms. Now women have himbos on their arms.
Staying power:They are the wave of the future. The more successful girls get, the more they are going to want himbos. We’re seeing a role reversal here. We got here because we taught our girls to be strong. It’s an exaggeration to say boys are looking at these himbos as role models, but subconsciously they are hearing and seeing these guys in the press, and it sends a message that their behavior is acceptable.
Rambles found while surfing. Do not heed the above advice.
date: @ 3:57 pm
title: Project
"That's it.""That's it what?""It's over. Rejected. Game over.""Oh."During the times when everything is fine and easy to go, people tends to forget their blessings and focus so much on their achievements. They take out this measuring tape of theirs and start to count every single thing that they can think of.
Yes. They will be very thankful, but they seldom give thanks. Esp those they have compromised the season before this. They unconsciously offended people, but the price tag of friendship sometimes oversee such trivial matters. Yet some acknowledged their offensiveness, but did nothing to salvage this little stuff of theirs. Their attitude in treating any relationship is like a rag - when I messed up, you came to the rescue. But when I'm fine, you are left beside the sink, waiting for someone else to wash but just not me, cos my hands are not made for such mundane work.
Life is full of crossroads. Some decide to make a turn in their lifes and hence forget those they promised to finish the jounrey together. Simply because they think they know what they want. They want to move on and make the turn. Not that it is not a good choice, but choices have consequences. Consequences seldom affect the 'turners', but those who have made a committment not to make that turn when they could before. Not that they didn't want to, but the covenant made them not to. Even so, to some it just another promise that is bend to be broken for sure.
Hopefully, everyone has such covenant, but sadly not all enjoy such privileges. Den strangely why on earth there is still people so strong in maintaining their relationships with one another? Simply yet profoundly. It is their conviction and loyalty. They do not belittle their speech, but make a choice to keep to their promise, even though it seems to be foolish to follow. They allow the 'turner' to do what they desire and at time they might disagree, but they made the choice to submit to the person's desire.
When conflict arises, one has to go under the other.
When desire clashes, one dream has to fade.
Usually its not the one who makes the turn the greatest. It is the one who give in to the other's choice, yet keeping his or hers a secret. What a fool. But a humble fool. Sadly, there's such thing as prevailing blind faith, otherwise there wouldn't be a need for freewill.
"Oh.""Let's start again?""Maybe next time."Count your cost before you even start work, because you might end up being mocked by other once you do not have enough money to finance the project. Maybe my rambling might encourage those who are feeling low.
date: Tuesday, July 18, 2006 @ 10:17 pm
title: To 'Mum'
To 'Mum'
Neither your true flesh,
Neither your born son.
Yet you came and laid
Your hard hands on me.
Memories a lost,
Mostly cannot recall.
But you chose me,
Because You love Him.
Tough to choose from
Two heads with one heart.
'Noone can serve two masters,' He exclaimed.
'Either you love one or hate the other.'
My world like the pairs since initial,
Broke into two.
I left.
I came back to Home.
Home it has been to me.
A place where dreams receives.
People came and stood at Home.
Parent came and take him home.
Yet He was here all the time,
Among the hunger ones.
Living with the thirst
Well is empty as usual
'Alas!' she brawled
'Yes!' we conveyed
So she went far far away
Home she returned
Rush and storm
Violent Spirit dwelled among the upper room
Just like the Bible said
He came as promised
Gone.
So we turned beggers pleading for more.
'More!' We screamed.
'No!' She defended.
But the heart desired gave into more.
We all turn prosperous and drunk.
Like Peter who other mistaked to be stupor.
We are Peters. Drowned early dawn.
Came.
Of more and more souls.
Filling up the ground like little trees.
Waiting anxiously for the rain.
That wet us like drain.
This is her story.
Part of it I say.
date: Sunday, July 02, 2006 @ 8:55 pm
title: Working Style
This is getting addictive.
Your Working StyleYou are enthusiastic innovators, always seeing new possibilities and new ways of doing things. You have a lot of imagination and initiative for starting projects, and a lot of impulsive energy for carrying them out. You are stimulated by difficulties and are most ingenious in solving them. You can get so interested in your newest project that you have time for little else. Your energy comes from a succession of new enthusiasms and your world is full of possible projects. Your enthusiasm gets other people interested too.
You see so many possible projects that you sometimes have difficulty picking those with the greatest potential. Your feeling can be useful at this point to help select projects by weighing the value of each. Your feeling judgment can also add depth to the insights supplied by your intuition.
Your feeling preference shows in a concern for people. You are skillful in handling people and often have remarkable insight into the possibilities and development of others. You are extremely perceptive about the attitudes of others, aiming to understand rather than judge people. You are much drawn to counseling and can be inspired and inspiring teacher, particularly where you have freedom to innovate. With talent, you can succeed in almost any field that captures your interest-- art, journalism, science, advertising, sales, the ministry, or writing, for example.
A difficulty for you is that you hate uninspired routine and find it remarkably hard to apply yourself to sometimes necessary detail unconnected with any major interest. Worse yet, you may get bored with your own projects as soon as the major problems have been solved or the initial challenge has been met. You may need to learn to follow through and finish what you have begun, but are happiest and most effective in jobs that permit one project after another, with somebody else taking over as soon as the situation is well in hand.
Because you are always being drawn to the exciting challenges of new possibilities, it is essential that you develop your judgment. If your judgment is undeveloped, you may commit yourself to ill-chosen projects, fail to finish anything, and squander your inspirations by not completing your tasks.
Suitable Jobs:
actor (always been. Kidding..)
advertising director
artist
clergy
conference planner
consultant
corporate or team trainer
entertainer
entrepreneur (sort of)
food and personal services
holistic health practitioner
human resource development specialist
interior decorator
journalist
marketer
media specialist
mediator
motivational speaker
psychotherapist
public relations worker
recruiter (sounds like Top Girls)
religious educator
sales
small business owner
teacher
writer (blogger?)
date: @ 8:45 pm
title: Me?
This is so crap.
Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education:You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
I rest my case..
Try if u dare.
date: @ 8:20 pm
title: RBFC
Wonderful.
Went for the Reinhard Bonnke Fire Conference.
'So what do your guys want to get from this conference?'
'Err...' -thinking hard-
'So what do your guys want to get from it?'
'No idea at all' -smiling bright-
I guess after the whole thing has ended, what I have in mind that to expect from the next such conference is a wake up call for my transitional youth life. I dun wan any cheim and bow wow wow and still dun understand kind, but I wan a fresh revelation for a same old stuff tt I have came across. Like renewal kind of impact.
But the most disappointing moment is not able to see the bonnke guy himself. How I wish he was like on the centerstage. But maybe God has other plans. True enough. Heard some great news from a friend. I was amazed of God's planning for people. Esp for those who are desperated.
Oh yar. It was var var voom to meet ber's clique on Thurs. Didn know I can actually converse with them rather well. Maybe I used to be more self-conscious.
Friday was freaky. I went to get dip in the pool but ended up with an upset stomach and could complain much to anyone. Cos I'm surely get slam for swimming just 10 laps. Apparently I have already gotten from many people. Females esp. Sigh. Why...
But not just tt. I was eyed by a guy. I have been publicizing my encounter in the changing room. A guy was eying the skimply clad me. A piece of stretchable over my essential areas. He was giving me a werid look and eyed me from the beginning to the end of my wash up. Gross!!
Boo Hoo Hoo. Now I know how girls feel abt being eyed.
Mood now: (".)
